Its time!

We have had a lot of little decisions to make since my last post. Since then I have had my IVF protocol appointment and at that we decided that my DH and I could start medication during my next cycle. We have all of our insurance worked out, our IVF check list is slowly going down and I am waiting with anticipation. When I start this medication, we will be TTC for 1 year, and people might think that that is no time at all, but when you want a baby as bad as I do, its a lifetime. I have seen 10 woman who I see, talk to, are friends with associate with on a daily basis get pregnant in this past year. One in which being my best friend, another my sister in law and my other best friend had a baby in April 2011. This year has been rocked with emotions streaming around baby's and then me finding out that I cant have one on my own, the worst thing I have had to deal with so far. Even worse than my parents separation. I was given a very special charm on christmas, a St. Gerard charm, the St. of motherhood, to keep with me and pray to. I have a feeling that this year is the year for me and my DH. We need something to look forward to and we deserve this. We are good people, we are trying to do everything right and we are the type of people who should be able to conceive with no problems, but life does not give you anything that you cant handle. On day 21 of my cycle next month I will go for blood work and ultrasound to see if I ovulated. If i did, i can start my meds that day and hopefully if all goes as planned we will have our retreaval and insemination as scheduled. I will keep updates during my medication cycle, for those of you who might or are going through the same thing, and are curions about my journey. I never knew that I could be so scared but so excited at the same time!!